it is late 6.3oam nw n im still awake. Thinkin those past few months we are so happily together, joy, laugher, ur smile n my joke. But nw its diff. I bet we both are in a diff world. I knw it, but i dun wan t knw why. Went to fajar mac wit xl, ys n my bro. Chatted, joked. Watchin ys doing his hwk. Walked past the block '415' n memories flash back. Or maybe i just think too much. But i rly cant 4get tht place, tht day, tht timin.. 12th may 09 is th day, i sat thr doing my work. why would it end up to be like tht. I dun wish to think abt it, but its hard to do tht. I dun no why im so serious abt this. But i knw im true-ly towards it. Wanted to sms you, but type half way i deleted every single word tht i think whad t write abt. I knw im nt gona fight alone, but wit some. .

Walked home sliently. Faked a smile. Nw xl n my bro, snoring like pig. Ys went home. I left no one to talk to and to post it out here. Maybe i left no more chances left, maybe this is hw my life goes, i didnt blame anyone. Im hidin away frm reality nw , so no worry tht u will see me. No worry tht i will trouble any one of u. Hoping everyone is doing well n May everyone wish come true.